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[No matter how ready he was for it, the words have Matt stuttering to a complete stop. Chest tight and eyes wide, it takes everything in him to fight the immediate instinct to hide his face. It's not out of discomfort, not entirely, but it's a rush. Emotions whirlwind inside of him and it's difficult for him to calm them. Difficult for him to know if he wants to settle them. It's a bit of a rush.

But somehow he manages to stare Ghoul in the eyes, to keep focused on him even as his breathing picks up and his heart threatens to pound out of his chest. And he even manages movement, something that isn't hiding his flushed face, arms wrapping around Ghoul's shoulders and hands brushing through his hair. Clearing his face, making sure he can see him, see his eyes as he stumbles through his words.] Again. Say it again. Please?

[ He's very, very cautious about this - just watching, nervously, trying to be steady for the both of them. It's a little scary, watching the rush of emotion on Matt's face, but Ghoul sticks to it, quiet.

And when Matt keeps looking at him, flustered as he is, arms wrapping around him and trying to get his words out, Ghoul rests his own hands on Matt's chest, gentle. Again. He can do that. Softer: ] I love you. [ And this time, it feels heavier to him, like - reinforcing it, like he's gonna choke on it. Scarier, but meaningful. It sticks in his throat, in his chest, and Ghoul has to look away, look down, try not to panic. It's been a long time. ]

[Ghoul can probably feel how Matt's heart beats against his ribs, frantic and fluttery. But he doesn't look away, doesn't turn away. Not even when it starts up again - The way he says it - The same words, but it's different this time and it has him stunned for a moment. Enough to let Ghoul pull away.

His hands shake a little as he draws his fingertips down Ghoul's jawline, hooking under his chin and gingerly guiding him back up into a timid kiss. Just a moment, a quick sentiment before he pulls away just enough to murmur it in return;] I - [Deep breath] L-loveyoutoo

[ A beat, and then another, and then Ghoul shifts, letting out a shivery little sigh of a breath. He wasn't expecting anything back. But he got it. And now he has it, even with as timid as it is, he has the sound of it in his head and he can keep it.

Someone loves you. That makes it easier.

Ghoul smooths Matt's hair back, running his fingers along Matt's skin, almost shaky from the way this all has him feeling. Like exhaustion. ] I - I dunno that... I dunno that you know how good that sounds t'me. [ Ghoul whispers, with a little laugh. He steals a much bolder kiss, a little more confident. Carefully: ] You okay?

[Tingles rush all up and down Matt's spine at the touches, radiating down his limbs in a pleasant numbness. He'd said it. They'd both said it and... Nothing happened. They're both okay. And Ghoul doesn't reject it - Says it sounds good - and kisses him and it's okay. Everything will be fine. He believes it too, even if just for the time being. Believes that maybe things will be easier, or get better. Maybe he can have this.

Which makes the answer come easy, and a little too enthusiastic despite how breathless he is] Yes! Yes. I'm - [He laughs, almost silent] Better. A thousand times better, Ghoul, I - [Don't have words for it, for how he feels, so he just. Pulls him into another kiss. He'll show him instead, relish that closeness. A contrast to how Ghoul feels, Matt brims with energy and feels like a giddy school child with his first crush, too excited to care about anything else.]

[ Oh - oh, okay, okay, yes. Matt sounds enthusiastic, sounds like this is easy for both of them, and Ghoul's emotionally worn, but that's fine, that's more than okay, because the way Matt reacts almost reinvigorates him. Ghoul actually laughs, a soft, pleased sort of sound, and returns the kiss he's given, tracing his fingers down the side of Matt's face. This is what he needed. This is what's going to get him through the shit he knows will come. ]

M'glad. [ Ghoul tells him against his lips, smiling. ] You got me as long as you want me, sparks. Okay? [ Another kiss, and then he pulls back just a bit to look Matt over, his smile turning into a grin. ] Ahah. Fuck, you're cute.

[It's too much and it has Matt giggling, bubbly and light against his lips. As long as he wants - A long, long time if he's honest. But for now?] Tonight? At least tonight. [No no no don't pull back, no pulling back, he's right back in Ghoul's space in an instant, laughing and peppering his cheeks with small kisses. No, stay right there] You're cute.

At least tonight and past that. [ Ghoul laughs, letting Matt curl up closer. That's fine, it's not like he wanted to be far anyway. ] I owe you stories anyway, yeah? Maybe we could trade. [ God, there really isn't anything like seeing Matt this happy, Ghoul thinks. Maybe he should say it. ]

I like - I like seein' you this happy, I hope y'know. [ Ghoul says, soft, closing his eyes and pressing their foreheads together. Yeah, this is good. ]

[Matt nods enthusiastically. Stories - Stories were good. He really likes Ghoul's stories - Whether they were real ones about his life and the people he knew or myths from where he's from.

Before he's able to say as much, though, Ghoul's hitting him right in the chest again. Oh. Oh. His face flushes and he laughs more, harder, squirming a little. He's really not sure what to say, how to react to it] W-well, it's nice being... So happy, you know. So, thank you.

Edited 2014-02-20 22:55 (UTC)

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