[This is really what he wants. What he has wanted, and he's gotten close in the past, but - never this much. Not sober. Ghoul shudders out a little hurt noise when Party gets his fingers in his hair, but it's okay. Just knee-jerk. Ghoul lets his hands drop down to hold onto Party's shirt instead, getting him all wet and just not... caring.

It's definitely a need and he's incredibly relieved that Party knows him well enough to let him do this. There's a part of him that aches for more, for something past this, but that hurts too much to think about. So he doesn't. Just kisses back, intense and a little frantic to counteract the steadiness in the way that Party's got him.]